Sour Note at the End of a Beautiful Tune

Have you ever done something idiotic and then kicked yourself in the pants for hours afterwards? First of all, today has been a day full of affirmation. Since Mom and I officially launched our website (www.ashberrylane.net), emails for subscriptions to our newsletter and entries into the contest have been flooding in. The life of a writer is usually lonely, but not today! Each email brought a huge smile to my face…and Mom’s as well.

So what moronic thing did I do? (My children aren’t allowed to say stupid, which means I’m not allowed to, either!) Our church had its first ever Krazy Karaoke night and more people showed up than I expected. That kind of shindig is right up my alley. Though my voice is not impressive, I love to have fun and hang out with all my friends in a casual setting. We were nearing the end of the evening and everything was still going smoothly. Then, on an impulse, a group of us picked a song very quickly and went up to sing it. As we got on stage, I remembered a not-so-good lyric and suggested maybe we shouldn’t sing it after all. Instead, we all decided to sing a different word at that spot. Well, it turns out that the only fun thing about that song was the chorus. The verses were horrible!

It goes to show how numb we are to the media that surrounds us. If any of us had known what the words were, we never would have chosen to sing that particular song. For some reason, we didn’t even stop! Our brains must have been frozen, or missing, or being used for experimental medical procedures…

I could have come home from a fun night out at peace, but I came home mad at myself and deeply saddened that I had disappointed my loving Savior and contaminated His house with those words. (Note: none of the lyrics were profanity, but they felt profane.) I confessed and know He is faithful and just to forgive me, but now I need to let go of the shame and accept His cleansing. I need to quit kicking myself!

3 Responses to Sour Note at the End of a Beautiful Tune

  1. Nathalie November 11, 2006 at 8:15 am #

    I know what you mean. I came home feeling a little silly. I asked myself why I felt the need to sing at all. I guess it’s easy for me to be down on myself because I was on stage in front of my peers. Everything from not sounding like an angel, to handing my baby off because I couldn’t hold him. “Why didn’t I just put the mic down and quit?” We’re probably not the only ones who feel this way.

  2. Rudy November 13, 2006 at 10:53 am #

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  3. Rudy November 13, 2006 at 10:59 am #

    Well, don’t beat yourself up over it. All of us are friends and know that you guys didn’t get up on the stage with satanic intentions 🙂

    You’ll have to ask Pete and Greg about the time they sang a Beatle’s song with a questionable verse – for the youth group!!

    HAHA!!

    Just an innocent mistake.

    It was a fun night and we’ll be doing it again soon.

    But I’m sure we’ll all be more careful about lyrical content.

    Talk to you soon!!

    Rudy